Say what you have to say.

All that matters,is not having a person to hang out with but rather knowing a person who feels the ripples of your love and is willing to soak all wet in it. Every love has its hamartia and maybe ours do too. Not being able to be together, like most would, might be ours. But who cares, at least I don't, for me just knowing you have reflection of feelings like mine is enough to go till the end and be happy through the journey.
I don't need you to be my girlfriend but I need you to love me. love me and just tell me you do, the rest of the world doesn't need to know. You are my world and I be yours, the rest is annihilated from us.
If you don't feel the same for me than I hope it's not even an ounce of it. If you can't just don't even be nice to me for it just makes it excruciatingly painful and harder not to fall deep even when I know my love's faith is already sealed. And I know you too wont want me to mistake your kindness to something to suit my whim.
Then i would love you till i learn it is time to go on with other things in life, till I start wishing all of these and all of you was some childish intuition. Till I start praying you remember none of it. May such a day come on drone jets, so i wont even know when it happened.

Proposal

                 "I don't know how do i say this, so that you would say yes.I know i sound desperate but i love you. I wanna spent the rest of my life with you, have babies with you, not much at the least two. Hold your hand in public even after decades of our marriage. kiss you forehead every morning before you wake so that you would know how warm i feel to have u by my side every day. keep writing songs about you and how u make me feel like its the first time i did. But at the moment forget everything and say yes.I love you. I promise you won't regret. I promise i'll live everyday of my life keeping this promise, so that when you close your eyes at the end you'll smile for i would have given you more reasons and moments with more wrinkles, for us to be together. Say yes"